by Natalie Scenters-Zapico
Mira my acrylic uñas in negro y blanco
looks like checkerboard, a sparkle rhinestone
on each dedo. My uñas read NAAFI-4EVER,
osea I want to be super cutie & bailar
sin getting my cintura pulled all night.
Quiero bailar by myself to DJ ZUTZUT
& Smurphy. Quiero los punchi-punchis.
I want that mala vida. I want los santos
el equipo, not los santos de veras to pray
for my alma—te imaginas! I want to sweat,
hasta que llegue el diluvio. I want to yell
in the ears of strangers: Qué pasó corazón?
I want to yell: Te amo por vida tesoro.
I want to forget mí padre, mí madre, mí Dios,
los miraglos, los hombres that want my body,
mí cuerpo, my body, mí cuerpo, my body.
Quiero bailar so hard I get sacrificed on stage.
In quince segundos my corazón ripped open
for Huitzilopochtli, skinned alive like the daughter
of Cóxcox of Culhuacán. I want mí sangre to fall
because I turned my body into lluvia to save us all.
Natalie Scenters-Zapico is author of The Verging Cities, which won the GLCA New Writer Award, the National Association for Chicana/o Studies Tejas FOCO award, and was named a top debut of 2015 by Poets and Writers (Center for Literary Publishing 2015). Her most recent poems have appeared or are forthcoming in the Academy of American Poets’ Poem-A-Day, NACLA, West Branch, and the Bennington Review. She is the 2016-2017 Poet-In-Residence at Westminster College in Salt Lake City.